I can't stand my stupid younger cousin! I realize there are many people out there with many worse problems but for me right now this is a fucking nightmare! SHE STEALS EVERYTHING FROM ME! My money, my jewelry, my makeup (MY GOOD MAKEUP ALL OF IT GONE!) anything that isn't nailed down she takes it.

I CAN'T STAND HER AT ALL! Not that anyone would care enough to actually read this especially since my only watchers include 3 that are the same person and who ever else there is . . . none of which are ever on anyway. Not even my friends care anymore . . . I am a royal fuck up I guess. That nasty black cloud that hangs over everyones' parade and just when they are preparing for a fun moment I decide I have to ruin everything by pissing on that parade. Yeah, yeah my friends might say "noooooooo You're not that bad!" or "You're just an average rain cloud." maybe something like that.

IT'S A BLOODY LIE! I KNOW IT IS! --_-- a good thing that no one cares maybe cuz I can have my pathetic wallowing emo moment on my own. Well probably not . . . I realize I am in a serious depression. Not a depression enough to think it would be a fantastic idea to kill myself or anything I'm not that much of an idiot. No at this moment it's more like I wish that she'd drop dead. No . . . I lie. I wouldn't wish that on anyone . . . not really I'm not like that. But I wish she'd get a fucking clue and realize she's a stupid little whore when she does this fucking stuff.

What makes it worse is that no one cares enough to do anything about her in this house. Or at the very least the ones who could possibly actually do anything about it don't care enough. Mary and I we care but it isn't as though that little whore would listen to us. Maybe if I wasn't so selfish myself. I am self centered and egotistical I think. Well . . . I'm not sure if I could be called an egotist . . . should a person have self esteem to have an ego? Well I have no self esteem at all. If it wasn't so cold at the moment I might have talked myself into walking into town today. Maybe if it's nice tomorrow . . . or later today I might just do that and the cold can be damned I shouldn't be stuck in this stupid house more than I need to be . . .